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Samayara
After I left the house in anger, I sped up my scooter and rush to my college. The speed was that much if I didn't hold the breaks I can easily met with an accident but I think God doesn't want this. Because I was alive. I was just fed up of all this, the behaviour of my parents, my grandparents and also of my sister. Sometimes I wonder am I there real daughter or not. ? I clearly don't remember if I harm them in any way .
I really need to clear my mind and for this I need my besties. I have my 2 exams left only. But I hardly studied. But it doesn't mean I didn't know the basic concepts of the chapters, I do remember.
But these 2-3 days have really fucked up my mind so hard that the actual thing, my study, is not entering into my brain. Whenever I tried to revise my syllabus my mind automatically went to the conversation between my mom and me, between my sister and me.
Why they always think that I will bring shame to their reputation.
( Arey bhai , bachpan se pyaar paane k liye unki pasand ka sab kuch kar rahi hoon, apna passion apna dance chhod k unke liye sirf unke liye study kar rahi hoon. Unke hisaab se khana , bolna, chalna sab unke hisaab se to phir kyu. ? Sirf ek cheez sunn ne k liye ki tum ladki ho aur ladkiyaan jyada din maa baap k ghar nahi rehti. Haan nahi rehna chahti main is ghar mein but atleast aise treat mat karo.)
Their mindset ...it really sucks. That's the only reason why I didn't call Avyaan at our house. Kyu faaltu ka kalesh karwana. Only my brothers know about this and they also meet Avi outside the house .
As soon as I reached the college, the first thing I was looking for were my jigri dost. As I was walking towards the corridor from parking area, I again feel that someone was there, very close, like their gaze bore into my skin. I immediately turn around just to find nobody. But still the feel of getting watched was there and am damn sure the feel was real.
I was going through the corridor I felt a tug on my wrist and in no time I was dragged in the empty class room. I hardly got any time to process what just happened when I saw HIM in front of me again.
"What are you doing. ? Leave my hand." I almost shouted at him though deep inside I was very terrified but I didn't want to show this to him .
I was about to scream when I feel his hand on my mouth just to stop me from shouting .
"What are you doing here today. ? Aren't your preparatory holidays going on. ? Why you are in college today. ? Can't you just sit at home and prepare for your exams , why you come to college. ? Do you miss me.?"
His hand was still on my mouth and I feel very disgusting, by the way he was looking at me, by the way he held my wrist. I never got positive vibes from him whenever he came across me.
My eyes were wide open till now . Tears were in my eyes but I continuously blinked them away just not to show my helplessness. My heart was racing at a full speed like it was about to win a marathon, I feel shiver down my spine from his touch, from the way he was looking at me. But his hand was still on my mouth.
I don't want to be the victim again. I open my mouth just to bite on his hand and I did it . He hissed in pain and slightly he stepped back.
I took the opportunity and was about to rush from there, from his grip when he caught my wrist again and this time harsher.
I feel pain in my wrist and this time he came really close to me. He talked to me in very dangerous tone. The tone I hate the most. I was trying very hard to get myself free from his hold and his hold was getting more tight, I was sure there would be bruise on my wrist.
He said, "I am warning you don't test my patience and don't ever try to talk about this to anyone. I repeat anyone not even your so called friend Avyaan. You have no idea what I can do with him. Do you want him to suffer just because of you. Nahi na.?"
I was shocked and thinking what he will do with Avi. I don't want him to suffer. I was about to slap him when his phone rang and I gather myself. I find the opportunity , pushed him so harshly that he stumbled back and I ran from there straight to washroom.
AUTHOR'S POV
Little did she know that someone has watched them from afar coming from empty class and their condition was not good as if they had done something.
She went straight to the washroom. She was standing near the basin, holding her wrist, feeling the pain and disgust. She was now a crying mess. She wanted to shout, wanted to scream like hell, wanted to remove the disgust which he got from him when he was holding her wrist like his own property, wanted to remove the look, the way he was looking at her. She harshly rubbed the area , where his slightly imprints were there, until here skin becomes red . She splash cold water on her face just to cool down .
She wanted to talk about this to her brother, to avi but she didn't even know his name, his class, his stream . She had no idea whether he was from her college or not. She was clueless .
She came out from washroom . Hair proper set, eyes though were slightly red but not that red. She always wear full sleeves clothes, so hand prints on wrist were nowhere to be seen . She was now composed.
No matter what the situation is she had decided to talk to her brothers regarding this .
She was walking towards corridor to go to her friends. She was walking in her own rhythm when someone tapped on her left shoulder. She got startled and flinched by the touch. She harshly and quickly turn around just to witness her besties in front of her .
"What are you doing here.? And why you startled.? Is everything okay . ? Something happened.? Where is your phone we have been calling you from past twenty minutes. !!! "
Shanaya bombarded with her questions. Avyaan was standing beside her, he was just looking at her face very carefully and very closely like he sense something but couldn't say it loud.
She composed herself, not let them feel something was off and said, "I was in washroom and I didn't know when you called me on my phone." She checked her phone just to saw their missed calls .
" I am so sorry. I do not know how I missed your calls. Let's go from here , I have something to share, that's why I called you both to college . "
They went to canteen to have something.
"Haan ji madam , toh btaayein humein college kyu bulaya. ? Kuch doubts hain kya jo clear karne hain.?" Avyaan said .
" Eewwww, am not here for study. I am just fed up from my family and their mind set. Aaj meri mummy ne pehle he mere dimaag ki maa - behan kar rakhi hai, so today no study. I just want to relax." She said with a smile , though she was not very much relaxed but still tried to hold herself .
"Kyu Aaj kya hua aisa ? " Shanaya said .
Her smile slightly faltered remembering the morning incident and automatically her hand goes towards her cheek unknowingly.
"Kya hua sab theek na. ? Bol.. !!! " They both said in unison. They both were actually concerned about her . They knew everything (according to them), they care about her, they love her. Her eyes welled up from their concern.
"Main in sab se tang aa gyi hoon. Didi k liye rishta aaya hai. Ghar par uski baat chal rahi hai . Maine kal raat unhe bolne ki koshish ki, ki ek baar didi se puchh lo wo kya chahti hai. Bus unhone mujhe ye bta diya ki main ek ladki hoon, mujhe bado k beech mein bolne ka koi matlab nahi . Mujhe apne kaam se kaam lena hai . Aaj subah bhi meri mummy se behas ho gyi aur aaj bhi unhone mujhe ek thappad maara. Wo to chachi ne bacha liya warna mummy ne to aur bhi maarna tha. "
"Aaj bhi thappad maara.? Matlab. ? " Avyaan asked in anger .
"Hmm, kal shaam ko jab main shaanu k ghar se gayi to main chachi aur mummy se baat kar rahi thi, didi k rishte k baare mein chachi ne mujhe btaya. Wahan baat karte karte meri mummy se behas ho gyi aur unhone mujhe ek thappad maara. Aaj bhi jab main aane wali thi college tab bhi maara. " She was crying now .
"Tere ghar walo ko chahiye kya yaar. ? " Shanaya said.
"Unhe sirf humse chhutkaara chahiye aur khud ki behan chahe jo marji karti jaaye .! Tujhe pta agar Shaurya bhaiya daadu se ldaayi na karte to meri aur didi ki kab ki shaadi ho gyi hoti. Ye soch hai inki. Agar inka bas chale to ye to baal vivah karwa dein . "
"Now you please stop crying . Tune kuchh khaya . ? "
"Haan khaya na,,, mummy k haath ka pyaar bhara thappad. Boht spicy tha . "
"Amu please yaar, seriously bta tu kuchh kha kar aayi hai ya aise e bhaag aayi. "
"Aise e bhag kar aayi hoon aur scooty chalate hue dua kar rahi thi ki saamne se kuchh bhi aa jaaye aur mera accident ho aur main marr jaau. Nahi rehna yaar aise. Tujhe pta hai na mujhe dance ka kitna shaunk tha, Inki wajah se maine wo bhi chhoda. Inki wajah se main padhaayi mein focus rakhti hoon, inki wajah se main introvert hoon, inki wajah se main kisi ajnabi se baat krne se darti hoon , inki wajah se main avi ko kabhi ghar par nahi bulaati . Sirf mere dono bhaiyo ko pta hai.
Aur meri behan, uske to kya kehne. Mujhe sach mein samajh nahi aata ki wo mujhse dhang se baat kyu nahi karti.Jahan Tak mujhe yaad hai na maine uske kapde churaaye, na koi uski cheez li, na uska mobile liya, phir bhi wo mujhse dhang se baat nahi karti .
Shaanu tujhe pta main apni he behan se baat krne k liye taras jaati hoon. Meri kitni insecurities hain, kitne darr hain jo meri behan ya mummy dur kar sakti hain par mere saath dono he dhang se nahi bolti .
Main us ghar se nikalna chahti hoon . Mera damm ghut ta hai wahan . "
She was a crying mess till then. Eye lashes filled with water . Cheeks and nose red. Today she couldn't control herself and let the pain flow through her eyes.
" Tu humse kuch bhi share kar sakti hai , you know that right. !" Shanaya said while she was also crying just by looking at her condition.
"I know, but mujhe face to unhe karna hai na. Avi tujhe pta main tujhe apni sister ki shaadi mein chah kar bhi bula nahi sakti. Main tum dono ko dekhti hoon aur apni dono aunty - uncle ko dekhti hoon mujhe Boht jealous feel hoti hai. Meri family is tarah se kyu nahi hai.? Main tum dono ko apne ghar kyu nahi bula sakti, specially you Avi . "
"Aaeeeee , main tabhi kahu mujhe ye jalne ki smell kyu aati thi jab bhi main tere saath hota tha . Aaaahhhh ,,, now I know the reason . Tu jalti hai mujhse. Main itna handsome hoon, achha khaasa ameer bhi hoon, tbhi tu mujhse jalti hai . " Avyaan replied. He knows about her family. He knows how much she cared about him.
"O hello Mr. Self obsessed, chane k ped se neeche utaro. Tujhe apni khud ki tareef karne k liye nahi bulaya, Amu k dukh sunn ne k liye bulaya hai. " Shanaya said to Avyaan.
They laughed and she felt very light . They sat there for some time and then discussed some points for exams .
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As Aarav and Palak agreed to the marriage, God knows they actually agreed or just forcing themselves but for their families they agreed, their family members were now eager to meet each other .
Aarav's grandmother called Palak's grandmother.
On call they discussed about the marriage as they already inform each other that their grandchildren agreed to marriage .
So they decided to meet .
Sumitra ji hung up the call by saying that they will come day after tomorrow to their home to see Palak and to meet rest of the family members and if possible they will call pandit ji for further proceedings.
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The environment inside the home was chaotic. Sarika and Rajendra ji ( Samayara's grandparents) were giving instructions to both the girls , specially to Samayara , not to over excited and not to come in front of guests until she was called, which was impossible . All the instructions, which were totally baseless, useless were given to them .
Tum ladki ho jyada hasna nahi , jyada baat nahi karni , unchi aawaz mein nahi bolna . These were the basic instructions given to Samayara.
For Palak the instructions were : jab wo log tumse kuch bhi puchhenge to tumne sirf haan ya na mein bolna hai. Jyada swaal nahi karne, jyada smile nahi karna. Unse jyada baat nahi karni aur koshish aisi karni hai ki wo log haan he bol kar jaayein .
Tum dono ko samjh mein aaya ya nahi. ?
Mujhe koi bhi gadbad nahi chahiye .
Rishte mushkil se milte hain aur jab mil raha hai to dhang se rehna .
For Samayara it was too much . She felt too much suffocated. She decided not to come in front of guests. This was way too much or more than that .
Who says these kinds of things to their daughters. ? Were they really their daughters or burden.? They were talking like the boy and the family who was coming to meet them were the last one on this earth and the only option was to accept them whether her sister liked him or not . Like seriously.
Guests were welcomed by warm greetings. Everyone was happy. From Aarav's side his grandparents and his parents were present. Just in case they like Palak, they would call rest of their family members and pandit ji, if possible they would do roka.
Elders were sitting in living room. They were discussing the things, while somewhere in her room Palak was getting ready. She was very anxious and nervous. The nervousness was not of getting rejected, it was from her grandparents. What if the things won't go well as per their expectations what would happen.?
She was not sure if she was ready, due to nervousness. She don't want to listen to any of their lectures now.
She was sitting on the chair when her mother came to take her.
No need to worry, but don't say anything that would made things worse. Just keep your voice low . They are very good people. Just keep it in mind behave well so that they would say yes, only yes.
I don't have any doubt as you are beautiful, settled and also of the profession as the boy.
With those instructions, she was going with her mother downstairs, to meet the family.
She was welcomed with many pair of eyes, warm welcome. She sat beside Sumitra daadi.
Daadi ji was looking at her, really looking at her just to observe everything. Her facial features, her hands, her way of holding herself.
You know na, how our elders are. They are our scanners, they can scan everything through their eyes.
Daadi ji held her hand, just to feel her warmth. She hold her hand longer than required. Some questions were asked and their answers were given.
Though Palak was little nervous and scared but still she managed to compose herself.
She gave everyone a sweet smile . Everyone liked the way she smiled and how she carried herself.
Aarav's family members were feeling very happy. They turned towards Samayara's family and said, "Sarika humein to ladki pasand hai. Agar aap logo ko theek Lage to kya hum log apne baaki members ko bula lein. ? Wo log bhi ek baar mil lein to baat pakki kar lete hain." Sarika ji feels very good. She was over excited and without any second thought, she said, "Haan bilkul Sumitra, isme puchhne waali to koi baat nahi hai. Hum log bhi Aarav bete se mil lenge. "
With that rest of the Aarav's family members were called to come to their house. They were all ready as decided while coming here it was decided if by any chance they find the girl suitable for Aarav, they would call them and possibility of doing roka were very high.
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