Aarav's POV
As soon as I finished my breakfast I left from there leaving no room for teasing from my siblings. They will not spare me I know that. So it's better to avoid them.
I rush to my car, settled in and drove straight to the college. While driving my mind is completely distracted in the conversation held between daadu and me. Somehow I was happy but nervous too. What will be her reaction ?
Will she be okay when I will tell her that I asked daadu for 1 year for us.
We have discussed earlier about our relationship but I am still very very nervous. While driving I decided to call her since it still has time to reach the college.
( Oh sorry, I forgot to tell you all that I am a professor. Teaching is my passion. It's not like I don't want to join the company, I can do but I wanted to follow my passion. When I was in college, I used to admire one of my professor. Till then I didn't thought of teaching but when I saw how well she teaches us, something stir in my heart Her way of teaching was so good. I loved the way she teaches us. She didn't get offended whenever we asked her questions countless number of times. She was so calm and dedicated towards her profession.
She always said that teaching is her passion and she loved it. She enjoyed it. From there, I also feel like I wanted to be like her. I wanted to be a professor and now here I am. )
One ring.
Two ring.
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Rings go on .she doesn't pick up my phone.
Aisa kabhi hua nahi ki Devika ne mera call na pick ho. Devika, my girlfriend or you can say my heartbeat. I just love her. Kitna aur kab se nahi pta, maybe it was love at first sight.
I got tensed. But then I thought she might be busy with her research work. Research work needs lots of time, patience and energy. So, I decided to call her when I ll be free from my college in the evening.
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As soon as I entered the campus, I parked my car in parking area. I stepped out of my car and was walking towards staff room. On the way to staff room, girls are like eyeing me. or I can say they were literally scanning me instead of admiring. Are they eye raping me. ?? Haaawwww. Tauba tauba, ye chal kya Raha hai.!!? The very first thought came to my mind.
"Sorry Girls, but I am committed to someone else, to my love and I am one woman man. So stop wasting your time, stop eyeing me instead keep your mind busy in studies." I was repeating this in my mind the whole way towards staff room.
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Whole day went well taking lectures , assignments, brief talking with the colleagues.
When I got time in between my lectures, I again called Devika. She picked up the call that time and talk to me only for 2 minutes. She cut the call by saying that she has some work so she is busy. I got uneasy but still I was okay. May be she was really busy.
I asked her if she is having any problem or need some help, she denied. I feel awkward but I let it go.
She messaged me that we will meet tomorrow in the same cafeteria where we meet everytime. I said okay. I was relaxed then. May be I was overthinking that she is not okay.
The day has passed like this. I came home from college. Spend some time with my family. Just listening to their chit chat. I was physically present with them but mentally I was with my woman. I was so excited to meet her . To tell her that I have finally spoken to my family about us and they don't have any problem.
Uuuffff..
Am I just too excited or just childish who got something which was least expected.?!?!
Whatever the feeling it was, I was on cloud nine.
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It's Saturday today and I got ready to meet Devika. My Devika. I can't wait anymore. So, I decided to go as early as possible. Without wasting anytime I was in my car heading towards the cafe. Our favourite cafe. Our favourite hangout spot where we spend our time.
I was driving when I don't realise, I go back to the time when I saw her for the very first time.
Flashback
Devika, a shy girl with sweet smile on her face. She was 2 years junior to me when we were in college. I remember the exact moment when I saw her first time. She was wearing a turmeric yellow kurti with red color ankle length legging and red dupatta.
Yellow and red color suits her whitish complexion. Her waist length hair were tied in loose braid. Some hair strands were falling on her face . She was looking drop dead gorgeous.
Some boys who were junior to me and senior to her, were bullying some girls including her. Girls were having tears in their eyes and heads bowed down may be from shame, nervousness or embarrassment. So, I with my best friends went to them and asked them to leave the girls as they were looking terrified from them.
We do have some argument but they leave the girls. And the girls left the place as fast as they can. We also went from there. I was still in the thoughts of her, though I didn't even know the name and class of her.
By the end of the day when we were about to left the campus she came to me as we were standing in the parking area and she had to take her scooty. By chance, me and my friends were standing on the same spot.
She looked towards me, I feel very tickling in my heart. God, her beautiful brown eyes. She came towards our group and thanked us specially looking towards me. I was like aaj to kuch pakka hoga. I don't know what the feeling was but kuch to mehsoos hua.
She smiled at us and left. SHE SMILED. ufff her smile, Cute one.
I was still in her thoughts and cannot name the feeling.
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Its been few days from the bullying incidence, we do have some stolen glances. We usually meet in the parking area. Days passed and we got closer. From meeting in the parking area to numbers exchanged, we have developed a bond. Whenever anyone tried to say something to her, she called me. She was doing something to me which I can't say what it was.
And that day came when I decided to propose her, to say out loud my feelings for her. It was not very filmy. I keep it very simple. I was nervous if she rejected me. There were so many thoughts crossing in my mind. And for the very first time, I didn't tell anyone about this, not even my besties. I went to her and proposed to her with fingers crossed and to my surprise, she said YES. She said fucking yes. I was literally dancing in my mind. And from there our love story begins.
Flashback ends.
I didn't realise that I have reached the cafe until my thoughts were killed by the loud car horn. I looked here and there to realise a person was asking for the side to remove his car. That's when I got out of my thoughts.
I looked at my watch and realised that I was early. Don't wasting any time, I entered the cafe to surprise my Devika by coming early. In excitement I was half an hour early .
I was there to surprise her and in exchange I was surprised . No, no I was shocked to hell by seeing the scene in front of me.
My Devika was sitting with a boy of my age . He was almost of my height , have spectacles, medium length beard . He had curly hair which he tied in a small pony. He was handsome.
wait wait wait .... why I was describing him when I was in shock.
Get back to Devika.
They were sitting hand in hand.
I almost rush towards them and by seeing me they both got startled.
Aa...Aarav tu..tum..itni jaldi aa gye .? she says.
I was in so much anger I almost shouted at her.
"Jaldi aa gya...????? Achha hua jaldi aa gya.... warna mujhe kya pta tha ki tum ye sab kar rahi ho..!!!"
My jaws were clenched. I was boiling in anger and my veins were about to burst out.
They both got startled.
She reached to take my hand in her hands but I jerked her hands. Not letting her touch me.
She got shocked and had tears in her eyes. God..these tears..God ...why I hate tears in her eyes..
She started crying and in low tone she says, "Aarav you are taking it other way. I am not cheating on you. He is my cousin and he came to me and I told him to stay so that I can introduce you to him. You are taking the things wrong way."
I was shocked and feel really bad.
I apologise to both of them and was feeling ashamed. I was not in the mood to have very long chat. So we ordered something. I was still feeling very ashamed so I just ordered cold coffee not in the mood of having something to eat. Devika insisted me to have something that's why I ordered coffee otherwise I was okay with nothing.
She tried everything to cheer me up but I was not in a mood as I doubted her.
As we were simply talking, her cousin, I don't even remember what his name was, he got a call .
As soon as he left the chair and went outside to take the call. I grabbed her small hands in my hands and asked for forgiveness. She simply says , "it's okay Aarav, agar main tumhaari jagah hoti to main shayad is se bhi jyada overreact krti. But I am happy that you realised your mistake."
God.. How can someone so understanding... I feel so lucky.
I kissed her hands and thanked her..
I further told her about the conversation held between me and daadu.
At first she seemed like she was not happy but then she says she is ready once her research work is done, she will talk to her parents and she give me assurance that her parents shouldn't have any problem with our relationship.
I was so happy then.
We were having our normal talk till then her cousin came. Our food was also on our table .
We had our meal and left the cafe..
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I was in my car way back to home.
I feel very bad for two reasons. First I doubted her. My Devika. I DOUBTED HER. She is my first love. How can I doubt her.
Am I overprotective.?!?
Am I over possessive.?!?
Am I over obsessed with her.!?!
Ofcourse I can be. She is mine . Only mine.
Second thing I was sad for was I don't get much time to talk to her, to admire her. But somehow I was happy that she is ready to spend life with me. No matter how much time she needs. She is mine and I am hers. I am ready to wait .
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AUTHOR'S POV.
Days passed into weeks. Everything was going smooth. They both were talking to each other like before. No misunderstandings were there in between them. Everything was going butter smooth.
One day, they were talking through video call.
She was not feeling well . She was at her home and her parents were not there with her.
She was feeling very low. She was missing him so she called. He was in his room. He feel very bad as she was alone. He wanted to go to her but she stopped him saying " it's okay I can manage. I had porridge, taken medicine and is now going to sleep."
He somehow was okay with that not wholeheartedly but he was.
He really want to go to her. To hug her, to pamper her, to actually babysit her.
But she denied and he didn't push her.
They both were on video call and he decides he will not cut the call till then she sleeps.
So she sleeps while having video call. Once he was assured that she is in her deep sleep he cuts the call not to disturb her.
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Next day, he went to college. He delivered his lectures and rest of the day was as hectic as always. He decided to go to her place to check if she was feeling better or not. So, he drive to her home.
Now he was standing in front of her home.
There was one more car parked in front of her home. At first he thought her parents had come so, decided to leave. As he was about to leave the place, he decided to call her just to have a glance of her. He called her and she didn't pick up the call. He felt uneasy. He stepped out of the car and was about to rang the doorbell. His one hand was on knob of the door and one hand was on door bell.
He slightly twist the door knob and to his luck it was unlock.
He slides the door inward. His eyes roamed around the living area. To his surprise, there was no one present. He didn't get positive vibes from the surrounding. First she didn't pick up the call, second the door was unlock and third there was a car parked also. If her parents were there, they must be around but there was no one.
He want to check on her if she was okay or not.
He decided to go to her room but he didn't know which was her room. So he was looking in every room but there was no one in them.
His heart thudded in his chest. His heartbeat raised like rocket. He went upstairs and was looking for her. He was about to twist the door knob when he heard some moaning sounds inside the room.
His heartbeat dropped from the same speed it raised. The uneasiness in the chest had increased. Sweatbuds were there on his forehead. His hands were shivering. He had no courage to see who was inside. But still he wanted to confirm his doubts. His thoughts were not clear. They stopped at only one point.
What if she was inside.?
She can't cheat him.
She loved him , he loved her.
She assured him that she will marry him.
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The moaning sounds inside the room were increasing and outside the room his heartbeat was decreasing. Whoever were inside the room they were on their climax . His shivering hand was still on the doorknob. He didn't have the courage neither to leave the knob nor to twist open the door. His brain was still as someone has snatched the power to think from his mind. He was stilled at his place.
Jaws clenched, eyes red not known whether they are from anger or from unshed tears but they are not blood red in color.
Veins popped out.
He got shocked when he heard a last moaning sound "aaahhhhh......dhruv aaram se, you'll fucking kill me. Aaahhhh..."
and the voice was non other than of Devika and Dhruv. ?
Who the hell was he .????
What the .......???????
Now he didn't wait a single nano second.
His eyes were red in anger. He twisted the door knob and entered the room. Without any single thought. Now it hardly mattered to him in what position they would be.. in what condition they would be.?!?!
He wanted to know each and everything.
When he opened the door , they both got shocked and startled. They both were naked. She was on top of him half covered with sheet.
Aarav's Pov
As soon as I entered the room, I got shocked to hell by seeing the scene in front of me.
She was half naked covered with sheet riding on top of him.
They were breathless and drenched in sweat.
They were shocked to see me. Devika startled and lie down.
I hadn't spare a second and settled myself on the sofa lying opposite to the bed.
I gave them time to adjust. My eyes didn't left the face of Devika not even for a single second. She narrowed her eyes , pick up her clothes , wrapped herself in sheet and rushed towards the bathroom without wasting any second. I barely looked towards the man. He took his time to wear his clothes.
I was waiting for her to come. Minutes passed but she didn't come. Now what's the use of hiding inside the bathroom. What's with the shame now. ?
I rushed towards the washroom and knocked harshly on the door. I was not in the mood to wait for her to spend hours in the bathroom. It hardly matters whether she got scared by my raised voice.
I again knocked at the door and asked her to come outside otherwise I ll break the door..
( Daya darwaza tod do.)
I can hear the sobbing sounds from inside the bathroom. Now these sounds have not effect on me. I got irritated and gave her last warning and returned to the sofa.
I sat there and within few minutes she came out of the bathroom. She was standing near the bed with head bowed down.
I looked angrily towards her and questioned, " So, he was your brother and In your family you can have s*x with your brother. Haan.???
She didn't say a single word and I hated that.
I again questioned her and this time my voice was much high . She flinched by hearing my voice and started crying.
I hated it. I repeated myself and asked angrily
DEVIKA. I. WANT. MY. ANSWER. DAMN. IT. DONT. YOU. SAY. THAT. YOU. LOVE. ME. AND. WILL. MARRY. ME. SO. WHAT. IS. THIS. ?
She raised her head and look into my eyes and what she said, my whole world was turned upside down. I was shocked, the earth beneath my foot was slipped .
She said, "I NEVER TOLD YOU THAT I LOVE YOU. DID I ?"
Then realisation hit me.!
YES, she never said these words. Never in these past years. It was only me who always say these words. IT was ME who proposed her. She never confessed her love.
Lump formed in my throat. I , somehow controlled myself for breaking down. I again asked her a question why she did it to me.?
She casually said she didn't like my overprotectiveness, my possessiveness. She didn't like why I didn't allow her to talk to man. She said she didn't like my controlling and dominating nature.
WHAT THE...?????
Dominating and controlling nature..?
When and how.?
I was the one who always asked her what she wants to buy whenever we go on shopping. She always demands for those things which are really expensive and without any single thought I let her but then.
I was the one who gifted her expensive things and didn't allow her to spend money on me.
In these years I invested myself in my relationship. Did I do something wrong to love pure heartedly..?!?
Did I do something wrong to let her buy what she demands just for herself. ??
I didn't care about money, but she hardly gave me any gifts. Now I realise why.?
Because she only wants my money not me.
I gave her angry shots and raised my voice saying "SO. YOU. GOLDDIGGER. YOU. ONLY. WANT. MONEY. ??"
How much money he is giving you now ?
Now that man looked at me. Or maybe he was looking at me from starting but I hardly noticed.
"O hello"... He was about to say something but I cut him off.
I was not done yet..
I again looked towards her and wanted my answer but she remained silent.
So without wasting any time I took some money from my wallet , walked towards her.
She stepped back as I stepped forward till the time her back hit the wall.
I took some notes and threw them at her face.
I didn't want to disrespect money, but if she wants my money not my love them here you go girl. Keep it in this way.
Without waiting for her response which hardly matter to me now, I walk towards the exit..
I gave a angry look to him and patted his back and gave a piece of advice by saying , " Aaj isne mere saath aisa kiya hai, kal wo tum bhi ho sakte ho . Baaki jaisi tumhaari marji.
And left the room.
Once I was outside the home, I was in my car.
My heartbeats were increasing. I was not in the state to drive. I keep running my hands through my hair. It was getting very difficult to digest what had happened with me.
I called Sid my best friend and asked where he was.
We don't need much words. We understand the situation of each other just by the way of talking.
I want to burn the whole world.
I was failed in my first love.
I feel like drinking , so without wasting any time I told Sid to come direct to club.
I don't want to face anyone this time.
So I drove directly towards club.
I was driving at high speed not caring about traffic and traffic rules..
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I was sitting in the bar when I feel someone's presence behind me . I don't have to look around to check who was here because I know who was there.
He tapped on my shoulder. And without wasting anytime , I hugged him and that was the last thread of my patience . I broken down as soon as he hugged me back.
( I know man usually don't break down but if there are true emotions then it happened and that's what happened to him right now. )
He didn't ask anything and let me cry.
Once I was feeling light, i shifted myself and leaned in the chair.
Now here comes his train of questions.
"what, when, how, where it happened.?"
All the W questions were lined up .
I narrated him the whole story. I was looking in his eyes all the time. He was not shocked as he already knew that this would happened.
I was about to say something but he cut me off..
Bhai maine tujhe pehle bhi smjhaya tha ki wo ladki theek nahi hai tere liye. Wo tera use kar rahi hai but tu nahi samjha. Tune hamaari ek baat nahi maani. Tu hamesha se uski side leta raha. dekh ab usne tere saath kya kiya. !
Wo tujhse nahi tere surname ki wajah se tere saath thi. Use tu nahi tera paisa chahiye tha."
I was looking at him without any expression.
I was so numb I hardly feel anything.
What he was saying was right. He warned me so many times. He warned me to back out so many times. But did I listen to him.? NO.I.DIDNOT.
I remember the day when he told me that he had seen Devika with a boy in the cafe as he was there with his client.
I didn't believe him. I was so stupid in so called love that I didn't listen to my best friend who is just like my brother.
I was so blind in so called love for Devika that I ignored him .
Now what's the use of regret now.
I was responsible on my own to put myself in this situation.
I feel very ashamed but still I gather my courage and say sorry to him for not listening.
How can someone be so stupid that they didn't care about the people who actually cared about you. I.....I WAS THAT STUPID.
I hugged him again.
I asked the bartender to pour some more scotch. I was already very high.
Sid again warned me not to have something much but asked him that today I need it no matter what .
I want to erase that bad chapter from my life.
I WANT TO ERASE THE WORD LOVE FROM MY LIFE.
I keep drinking until I passed out and what happened next I didn't remember but one thing was clear that from now on there will be no place of love in my life. There will be no woman in my life.
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