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Another day at college, I really love to come to college not just because I love to study, but also for my buddies . They are my jaan. They love me, tease me, understands me and moreover they are the reason when I partially forgot about my dukh dard peeda. Ye dukh khatam kaahe nahi hota bey. I don't have many friends, in short , I don't want anyone except these two. They are my everything .
As we entered the class , we settle down on our seats. With Avyaan aka Avi sits between me and Shanaya aka Shaanu. Our Professor entered the class by setting his spectacles. He is our old professor who is going to be retired soon .
As soon as he started teaching the course, when and why time stilled, we all don't know because today we all don't want to attend the lecture but God knows why we are here, may be we don't want to trouble our oldie professor ...!!! 😜
When he ended his lecture , he announced something which lit up the faces of students, like they have given oxygen to breathe, like they have given water to drink in desert, like they have released from prison, like they have demanded degree without study and it was approved.
He says, "Management has decided to take students for a trip which is of 3-4 days." Trip, a college trip, wow it is going to be so much fun. Everyone start guessing the place where we are going ?
Some says Shimla, Some says Manali, Some says Kasauli, Some of them says somewhere in South India.
By hearing the answers our professor laughed and what he says about the place everyone got so much excited. There was a chaos in the class. We all were very happy. He says we are going to LANDOUR, MUSSOORIE AND DEHRADUN .
Dehradun , Mussoorie are the most visited places but Landour is something new.
It's a very beautiful place with peace. Far from the polluted city and close to nature.
Far from the chaos, from traffic and close to calm and peace in air .
Far from hustle and bustle of life and close to happiness.
You are doing nothing but still you are enjoying the nature. The air, the breeze there is very calm and very peaceful .
Where people visit mostly Dehradun, Mussoorie but Landour is still unexplored by most people .
I have visited there once but with my family and that time I was young . I had not that memories .
And you all know trips with family are no fun . It is just change of place not chaos . But with friends it's different experience . You ,with your age of people is next level fun . No parents , no restriction , only masti . We all were very happy .
By clapping to gain attention of us , Professor further says those who are willing to go, will have their consent form signed from their parents and inform the teacher incharge within 2 days regarding this .
He says and left the class . Now the main problem here was how to get permission from our parents . Some were happy that they can easily get permission but some people like me , my excitement touches the ground . Gravity has done it's work . 😔
I know it will be a challenge for me to tell them to let me go to trip and above all for 4 days . What do you think they will allow me. ?
I doubt . I have to do something . I have to reach for mediocre to talk to my parents , above all my grandfather .
Uuuuurrrggghhh ,,,,, Why it is so difficult . ?
Shaanu and Avi can easily get permission . I know my aunties very well . They are very cool unlike my mother . Why there are so many restrictions for me.?
I was thinking about it when suddenly Avi pats me on my shoulder to grab my attention .
O ! hello . Where are you lost . ? Sir has left the class long ago . ! Where is your little brain roaming ."
I angrily glared at him . I am already in tension how to get permission from my parents and here he is making fun of me.
"Leave it yaar, Avi . I don't know how to get permission for Trip. I don't want to leave this opportunity to have fun with you both where there is no time limit for our chit chat, for our masti, for our laughter. I don't know when we get this again in our life . What happens next nobody knows. I don't want to sit at home and imagine what I will be doing if I would be there. What were you both doing without me. I don't want to miss this masti .
Hearing this Shaanu says, "Amu you are overthinking. Just talk to your parents, I am sure they will give you permission."
( Really Shaanu , you are sure about it. ? I smirked half heatedly . Only I know what will happen when I will tell them about the trip. )
There will be so many questions, so many glares will be on me like I demanded some piece of property from them . It's just a trip dude .
Uuuufffff ..
Rest of the day went smooth. Now it's time to say bye to them which I really hate. They are happy as they know that they will get permission but sad for me too. They do everything to divert my mind from overthinking.
By saying bye to them, I sit on my scooty and headed towards my house.
Yes , it's my house not my home. Home is where you find peace , where you find love , where you can do whatever you want (obviously not the things which are not good ) , where you can freely talk to your elders and no one will judge you , where not only you understand your elders but your elders also understand your point of view , where you can freely demand what you like , what you love. But in my case , it is all nothing. No one try to understand my point of view, no one try to give some freedom, ( it's not that I am desperate to enjoy my freedom but still it's something like where you don't have to hold yourself back ) , no body stands for you .
Sometimes , I doubt how they allow me and my sister to go to college because in our society girls are for household chores, for marriage not for college degree. Are they for real. ? In which era are they living . ? What if I got degree and want to join my dad's business and help him. They are not allowing me that too. What's the benefit of study then. !?!
How can they live with this type of thinking . ?
Will I be able to stand on my own feet. ?
Will I be able to live my life on my own . ?
Will I be able to make them proud ?
I was thinking all these things while going back to my house and I literally didn't realise when I reached my house. Thank God, I am safe .
After entering the house , I greeted my daadi , daadu. They were having their evening tea. They just nodded simply. No warm welcome, no smile , nothing else as expected .
Then I entered in the kitchen, I knew this time Maa and Chachi will be in kitchen.
They both are good to each other . They are not like typical Jethani - Devrani. It's not like there were no conflicts in them, there were. People tried to bring differences between them but failed. They both respect each other's privacy, each other's decision. I have seen them, whenever there was a clash between them, they immediately sort it out without wasting any time.
( Did chachi know what happened with me. ? Did my mother told her about me.? If yes, then it's great that their relation is sound. But if they don't know then what will happen to their relation. Will they treat each other or me the same way they are doing it now. ! )
Pushing my thoughts away which are enough to send chills down my spine,
I greeted both of them and gulped the water in one go . I got a angrily shoot from my chachi .
"Sam, how many time do I have to tell you to have water slow. ? Haan.?"
" Sorry Chachi. " I just love her and she loves me too . As she don't have any daughter, only two boys, so she love me like her own daughter.
It's not like I don't respect my parents. I do but I am not ready to forgive them what they have done with me in the past. I only respect them as elders, but I can't love them, not yet atleast.
I feel their pain, their problems and I try to solve their problems but I have my own reasons.
( Am I doing wrong . ? )
I went to my room . Lock the room behind me and went to washroom for shower. I love my shower time. It gives me peace. To release the tension, overthinking I spent more time there.
After taking a long shower, I slipped into my night suit as I don't have to go outside the house.
I reached the kitchen. Ask Chachi for Chai .
Uuuffff,,,, I am so chai lover . I can't skip it when it comes to my mind relaxing. A cup of tea and my mind blown .
After having my tea, I came to my room for study .
I didn't notice the time until my mother called for dinner. I closed my books and assignments. Freshen up , went downstairs, help chachi and mother in setting the dining table . I took my seat and sit like a good baby . I was having my dinner but my mind was somewhere else, how to talk to them about my college trip. How will they react . ?
I was thinking about it and I didn't get the time to know what actually happened when the words slip from my mouth before I can stop them .
" Papa, daadu hum...humara college ka tr..trip jaa raha hai... Kya...kyaa main jaa..sakti hoon ? "
God , why I am stuttering . ?
Their hands stop mid-air . Papa asks about where the trip is going ? to which I replied " LANDOUR , MUSSOORIE AND DEHRADUN"
Papa didn't say anything . Daadu replied, " nahi, koi jarurat nahi hai jaane ki.
My heart skipped, tears welled up in my eyes but I blinked them away before they fall.
But daadu .... Daadu cut me off in middle. "Jab bado ne manaa kar diya to nahi jaana ."
I was trying very hard to control my tears. I was about to leave the table when I hear my sister's voice.
She was convincing daadu to let me go to trip. She was convincing them.
She says, "jaane dijiye na daadu ... Ye mauka, ye trip baar baar nahi aata .
Daadu smiled at her. A smile which I didn't receive. I was in shock. Literally shock. What the hell just happened. ?
Daadu said he will tell me after sometime and left the table .
My heart dropped . ( Arey. !!!! Why are you putting me in suspense. Haan ya na baat khatam karo na . Thodi der mein batata hoon , ye kya baat Hui . ? Hhuuhhh.. )
I left the place quitely not waiting for anyone. I can feel their eyes on my back but who cares. I went straight to my room and decided to call my brother.
My Shaurya bhaiya. He lives in London. He left this place when he was 18 . He loves me a lot . I am still his baby sister.
We only talk through calls and video calls. It's been very long when we actually meet. I missed him . He sends gifts, business books, dresses and many gifts from there. He is the reason Daadu agreed to let us go to college. Chachi told me that he really fought with Daadu for me specially. May be that's the reason Daadu didn't give me smile often and don't love me that much .
I called bhaiya and he picked up the call in just 2 rings.
"Kaisa hai bacha.?" Haaye his caring voice. The question was simple but tears welled up in my eyes which I was avoiding from dinner.
"Bacha....kaisa hai ? " I was so lost that I didn't realise the call is going on and I am not speaking.
"Bhai..bhaiya...kaise hain...aap. ? " I was not able to speak .
"Bacha college mein kuch baat hui kya .? Sab theek hai na. ?" He asked immediately by hearing my shaking and trembling voice
"Nahi. Bhaiya kisi ne kuch nahi kaha ..bus aapki yaad aa rahi thi... isliye call Kiya "
" Bacha tujhe pta hai na tu mujhe kabhi bhi call kar sakti hai aur kuch bhi bta sakti hai. Tujhe pta hai na . ? Bol. ? Tere liye main free hoon. Ab bta sab theek hai . ? Kis ne kya kaha .? "
Then I narrate him everything. He replied, "koi baat nahi main daadu se baat karunga but you have to promise me ki wahan koi masti nahi hogi. Kisi ladke se koi baat nahi hogi. Teachers k saath aur unke according rahoge. ? Bolo. ?!? Promise . ?
I chuckled and replied, "ji mere possessive bhaiya koi masti nahi hogi. Kisi ladke se baat nahi karungi. Teachers k saath aur unke according rahungi. I promise....my overprotective bhaiya..
"Bacha tu jaanti hai na main tujhe kitna pyaar karta hoon..main nahi chahta tujhe kuch ho.. Trip apni jagah but safety apni jagah aur abhi tu chhoti hai .
"Bhaiya main chhoti bachi nahi hoon . I am a big girl now . Main 22 saal ki ho gayi hoon and I promise main kuch gadbad nahi karungi aur waise bhi Avi bhi jaa raha hai . To aap tension mat lo. "
"Avi..wo bandar. ?? "
"Ji Bhai,, wo bandar. " And we both laughed at this
We talked for about half an hour about so many random things . We cut the call as he needs to go to his work and assured me that he will talk to daadu .
I thought about my day and I fell asleep .
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